According to the dictionary, a curveball is something which is unexpected, surprising, or disruptive (when not referring to baseball, of course). I'm having trouble with the curveballs I'm currently experiencing.
I know that the Lord is good, that His love endures forever. I know that His plan for my life is infinitely more than I could ask or imagine. I know this because His Word tells me so.
Despite that, I would be lying if I said I understood those things, if I claimed to be entirely happy with everything that God is doing or has done in my life. It is at times like these that I wish I could have the eternal perspective that God has. I see only a small segment of my life, God knows the entirety of the trajectory that He has placed me on.
That can be little comfort, however, when things are so uncertain, when things are so different from what I expected. It is at times like these that I must surrender my thoughts, for my thoughts distract from the truth that God's Word proclaims. Deep within, I know that God's plan for me is better than anything I could come up with on my own. At this point, it's a matter of letting what my heart knows drown out what my head is telling me.
The answer to finding peace isn't an easy or simple one. I'm pursuing it through prayer and the Word. I can't guarantee a quick fix for me, or for anyone else. But I do know that, while I'm prone to wander, Jesus sought me when I was a stranger to Him. I know that I am enough, just as I am. I know that God loves me, even when I think I've failed. And I know that, in those assurances, I will find peace.
Colossians 3: 1-3
Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.